But that takes on a whole different meaning this weekend when I have to continue to follow the Whole30 plan. In my past life (read...two weeks ago) when would "diet" I would do so well during the week---breakfast, lunch, and dinner--I would stick on plan and eat what I was supposed to. But weekends were my cheat time. And don't you worry your pretty little head, I cheated like Tiger Woods in 2009!
Being diligent with my meal planning and being home has been easy while I have been doing this journey this week. Because I had control over my food. Things were going so smoothly. I could set up my crockpot and dinner would be done when I was home from work. But that all comes to a screeching halt this weekend. This weekend is my niece's birthday party. (So hard to believe that she is going to be 9!!!!) Which means we are making a day trip, and my fridge and crockpot are going to be out of reach. But going all day and relying on food prepared by someone else is something I know that I cannot do. I have to pack my lunch and dinner--or have a plan for if we eat out. Have Food. Will Travel.
That is causing me a teeny tiny bit of stress. I mean really. I have cold packs for in the car and my sister has a fridge. It is not like we are traveling to the Sahara or something. However, my biggest source of anxiety is ....that there is going to be cake. And I love cake. I mean, I LOVE cake. Like maybe I have a little unhealthy obsession that I have to keep in control about cake. You know that saying, "I love you like a fat kid loves cake"? Well, I am that fat kid. I am scouring Pinterest pins for something that I can have...that isn't a nectarine, or another piece of fruit. Something that resembles cake but I won't. Because cake is what got me where I am today.
And my big question is why??? What is wrong with me that my eating habits are so out of priority that I want to cry to even think about just watching everyone eating cake and not getting to enjoy it myself. That is the question I pray will be answered during my time on this Whole30 plan. I need to hit the reset button (queue sound byte of a certain politician talking about the reset button with regard to foreign affairs--if you don't know what I am talking about...don't worry, neither do I ). That is the purpose of the Whole30 for me--resetting my mind. Yes, for my immune health, inflammation, etc I need to do this to reset my body. But it is also to reset my relationship with food and the way that I think about it. Life is not only about the food that we eat or celebrate with! (Please oh please, don't tell Ree Drummond I said that. I don't want her to take away my autographed copy of The Pioneer Woman Cooks: A Year of Holidays)!
No worries...no cake!
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